THE OUTFIT THAT SAYS "I HAVE IT ALL TOGETHER," BUT REALLY I DON'T

msgloriayang
Aug 27, 2018
3 min read

Updated: Oct 4, 2018

Yes, I said it. The outfit that says "I have it all together," but really I don't.

Life.

When things fall apart, really fall apart, it's hard to pick up the pieces again. You go on what seems like a never ending roller coaster ride of emotions mixed together; anger, sadness, happiness, and so forth. It can get extremely confusing and, well.. frustrating. You start second guessing and wondering if you're in the place you're meant to be or if the choices you're making are right for you. Then before you know it, you feel like you're drowning.

At least... that's how I've been feeling.

In exactly four months, I will be walking down the aisle at my graduation and nothing scares me more than being unemployed. I told myself that I REFUSE to settle on a job, especially one that does not serve my life purpose or career goals. As much as I don't want to admit it, I fear how my life is going to be after graduation. The expectations from having a piece of paper by my name will skyrocket and I will soon be bombarded with questions about my career and my future. Already I've had people smirk at me when I told them my dreams of being a blogger and an influencer.

"What is that?"

"What are you? A model?"

"What are your backup plans?"

Basically their sugarcoated ways of saying that I'm going to fail.

Truthfully, I never really knew what I wanted to do, but I always knew the kind of woman I envisioned myself to be. I've always been drawn to the arts and entertainment world. Seeing how inspiring and authentic people can be truly moved me in ways I was never able to explain. When I was younger, I loved to write, draw, and sing. Although my drawing skills have deteriorated and my singing skills are only used for karaoke, I never fully gave up my passions. Instead, they evolved in different ways. I eventually picked up modeling and then found myself falling in love with fashion. Since then I've been fortunate enough to be involved in many things from volunteering with several organizations, competing in a pageant, and now pursuing social media. Who would have thought? Now I am loving it and simply breathing it.

After competing in the Miss Minnesota USA pageant last year, I explored my passions in depth and asked myself questions that teachers would ask their elementary students. Questions such as, "what do you want to be when you grow up," or "where do you see yourself years from now?" These are questions that I never took seriously until I realized that I am no longer 6 years old, 16 years old, or even 26 years old anymore. I have less than three years before I turn 30 and I told myself to seriously GET TO WORK.

And here I am.

Break ups and broken friendships later.

Unlike Beyoncé, I don't wake up like this.

But even so, nothing cheers me up more than putting together an outfit that screams confidence and highlights the spirit I possess on my best days. Once it's on, I feel like Super Woman and suddenly I am ready to take on the world by storm. No one and nothing can stop me, not until victory is achieved. This is the mentality that we should all have. When you fall down, fall hard, but don't be afraid to get back up because the comeback is always stronger than the setback.